My wife likes to call me "Deacon" sometimes. It's because seemingly, when the occasion arises and there's need of something to be said or a query to be satisfied, I can come up with what hits the spot. A word in due season, as it were. Now I'm no sterling character, no Man for All Seasons, no Dudley Do-right. It's a talent, and has nothing to do with me really at all. The name has no place in me, I don't think... but ok evidently it does, and the rest of me is wanting to 'catch up'. I'm in no hurry, I'm afraid.
There are some things I am 'getting' though, and it's all ground-level basics: Just keeping my head on right and remembering to look through the Objective Lens- the one that isn't already installed in my poorly-jigged head- instead of my own distorted one; walking and not running through a day; being kind instead of reactive. These aren't high-reaching goals, they're more about just being present of mind than anything. If you can do it, you can live with other people, so I'm at it. I'm a family man, after all... Basics, mang. Because I'm really, down deep, a pretty selfish, unambitious, socially narrow and un-forward dude! I can build something from a plan, I can pull a funny quip out of my hat when the pressure's hot, and I can play a tune and make a lot of noise with my bass guitar. But those are not basics...
Anyway, you are what you is and you get what you got. I'm learning. I'm Deacon.
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